Amanda (On a Book Bender) sparked an idea in me during her Clock Rewinders post on Sunday. She made me think about the anxiety (not really, but you get what I mean) I’ve been having about choosing what to read next. I’ve noticed that my reading has slowed down because I’m having serious issues with what to choose! I have some review books left that should make choosing easy, but it doesn’t. It’s beginning to dawn on me that when I “have” to read something, I’m less likely to choose it! What am I, a teenager? Ugh. This is not good for review requests, one of the many, many reasons I’m no longer accepting them. I honestly think I want to keep that rule in place for the life of this blog. Unless I’ve worked with the author prior, or reach out to them myself…
Meet my unread YA shelf. And that is just YA, and obviously not eBooks. I’ve finally reached 500 unread books (hardcopy + ebook) that I personally own. This may not seem like a lot to some of you reading veterans who have books in every nook and cranny of your living space, but this is a lot. I have a good 5+ years of reading material here with the speed at which I read. And of course, the collecting doesn’t slow down. I think I need to STOP collecting. It is only adding to my problem, but will I do it? Doubtful. It reminds me of the people who set themselves up to fail, even expecting it, so they never move on, heal, whatever. Do I need book therapy?
I’ve decided to not request from Scholastic anymore until I have a manageable to-read shelf, which will likely be never. Of course, if I can get a book in a series that I love and know I will read soon, then I’ll request it. But no more requesting random books because I have a stack from them I still haven’t read. *bad requester* I certainly don’t want to ruin my relationship with them, either, so…no more. (P.S. I got their Spring Catalog email Tuesday AND I DIDN’T LOOK!)
I once created this fun way to choose my next books, leaving it up to Goodreads and Random.Org, but when I use it, I find myself not wanting to read the book it chooses! I don’t think it’s because I don’t want to read that book, but my brain won’t shut up about all the other awesome books I want to read, too. Therefore, I end up staring at my Goodreads shelves and frowning, which is not good for the face. I never used to let this get to me. I’m not sure why I’m suddenly feeling like I need to be up-to-date on ALL THE BOOKS because that is the most absurd thought to ever cross this zany brain of mine.
Does anyone else suffer from book anxiety? How do you manage it?
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